What in the world i am thinking right now, well some things i would think most people would rather not here me of thinking of literaly in a sence of depression and anger. However at this point i have just been thinking to much and that is sometimes never a good thing. I hate myself so much at this time i feel that thinking is more of a detrimental thing than anything else, i can not stop thinking about all the crap i wish i could take back and how i am not who i thought i was. I am a annoying brat compared to what i once was, a person who was thoughtful now seems to me is a loser and so selfish that he only cares about himself to the degree of secluding himself from family, then again i will probaly never read this again to look back and see how deep a thought i could possibly be in such depression to the point of thinking of unthinkable things and to of said things i promised myself never to say, i now make more promises for myself for now on that i hope never to break, to consider and go through with my thinking would only prove to myself that i am worthless and want a way out of things, i have not lost my head completely yet. I am still somewhat sensible, i do not type this for you to worry i am simply letting you know that i am not the person you think i am, i am a worthless being at this moment and can't truly think of a better reason to type this more than for pathetic pitty and sympathy and to blow off steam, don't take it to seriously i think to much